24 hours after kissing my hottie goodbye as she set off for another encounter with her newest lover, she's just left again to visit Jerry at home for another good fucking.
So here I am again at the keyboard to tell you about hotwifing stuff.
Anna has unquestionably turned a corner since she started seeing James as well as Jerry. She's just loving her freedom, her role, her "hobby" as she jokingly calls it.
I think she loves the luxury and variety of having three men at her disposal, all of whom can give her a wonderful sexual experience in their own unique way.
I think Jerry can best be described as her "mate". If she were looking for another pregnancy now, and she were letting all three of us have a chance of impregnation, I have no doubt that his sperm would be the ones that her body would allow to fertilise her eggs. They have such a depth of sexual chemistry, it's awesome to see. That she is always dripping wet by the time he makes contact with her pussy lips, every single time they meet, four and a half years down the line, with a typical two meetings per week in recent months, tells its own story in my view. They enjoy passionate, intense, meaningful sex that inevitably ends in huge simultaneous orgasm these days. It's like marital sex ought to be - meaningful AND intensely exciting.
James looks like he's effectively becoming her new illicit pleasure, and a thoroughly wild one at that. The energy, aggression and commitment he's showing to fucking her like it's his last day on Earth are getting her very excited about some mind-blowing sessions to come.
My role... I'm her rock. Hard as, much of the time! As a pure sexual partner I can't match the physical performances of her lovers. Jerry's too big, in all respects, and James' perfectly shaped rock-hard G-spot massager, his stamina and his relentless banging are tough to compete with. Besides, there's no taboo or illicit excitement about sex with your husband! But we do still have incredible sex, passionate sex, a physical relationship that feeds off the excitement of her double (triple?) life and also off the deep love she feels for the man who loves her enough to set her free.
Ah yes... love. I promised a post about love.
There is no doubt that Anna's hotwifing adventure has brought us closer together as a couple. It's an intensely pleasurable thing to share, and the fact that it's a secret we can share with no-one except her lovers makes it all the more exciting.
She often tells me how much she loves me for having given her back the sexual freedom that she loves and that is not normally available to married women.
I love her more because she has become again the woman I originally fell in love with in the late nineties: a sexual free spirit, no longer shoe-horned into the box society defines as "married woman."
We both feel that hotwifing has taken our love to a new plane, one that is just not available to those who are constrained by western society's conventional concept of love where possession and attachment are the defining characteristics.
Where does that leave Anna in her relationships with her "lovers"? We use that word in a way which trivialises its true meaning. Is James really a "lover"? No, he's a fuck buddy, pure and simple. But what about Jerry? They have enjoyed four and a half years of intimacy, friendship and incredible sex. In May 2012 we will reach an interesting milestone: at that point Anna will have been seeing Jerry for exactly half the length of time that she and I have been married. Beyond that point, with each month that passes, he and I get ever closer to being equals in terms of our length of sexual service to Anna.
Do they love each other? Undoubtedly. Anna has recently told me that she feels love for him, and that she is sure that he does for her. How could it be otherwise? They are both capable of supreme detachment in sustaining a sexual relationship for so many years without emotional complications, but I defy anyone to maintain an intense and passionate physical relationship with another person for that length of time without some emotional connection developing. I know I couldn't. When Anna started seeing Jerry in 2007 I was watching immediately for signs of unwelcome emotion, but the only emotions I saw in Anna were the ecstasy and excitement and exhaustion of sexual abandon.
The interesting thing is that neither of them has yet told the other about the love they feel. Could that break the spell? Disrupt the remarkable balance in their relationship?
Anna tells me that they don't need to tell each other with words; "We tell each other with our bodies."
"Does that mean you make love, these days, rather than just fuck?" I asked her.
She paused for thought. "We do both, at the same time."
I'm sure that one of these days one of them will utter those three magical but loaded words...
Am I worried? Not in the slightest. There are several readers and regular commenters who will feel that I'm reckless in letting things reach this point with Jerry. All I can say is that I'm the guy under the spotlight, and only I know how it feels to be this particular hotwife's husband. I've never felt so loved, and she's never looked in my eyes with such adoration and respect as she does these days. What I'm learning is that love is not an absolute. The way she loves me is something quite different from the way she loves Jerry. She'll never love him in the way she loves me, because he'll never be the one who set her free.
Ben
I am one of those people who cautioned that your wife's relationship with Jerry set off alarm bells. It simply looked a bit too exclusive for comfort.
ReplyDeleteNow that your wife is enjoying sexual pleasures with several other men, especially on an ongoing basis with both Jerry and James, I think you and she are in a much healthier place in terms of your marital relationship.
Do you ever envision a time when the four of you might enjoy an evening in which your wife entertains all 3 of you simultaneously?
Well, I thought that taking on James meant that the danger of her shifting her affections to Jerry was abated. Now, it is sounding like the relationship with Jerry has become poly-amorous. Being a new Hotwife, I am distrustful of poly-amorous developments. I recommend a stable of three or four lovers as well as the husband. Love your blog, it had been an inspiration to me.
ReplyDeleteBen this is your best post.
ReplyDeleteA reader of mine directed me here . . . and I have been browsing through now for a little while.
Many of the feelings you express in previous posts, (and many of your experiences), are very similar to those my husband and I have experienced, and shared, over the past decade.
But it is this very post that resonates so strongly with my own feelings. It IS possible to feel a different type of affection (love) for a lover. Different in NOT just a sexual affection, and different from that love you feel for your own partner. I feel that affection for S (my own long-term lover) and my husband J, knows and understands these feelings. And, just as you say, these feelings have brought J and I to a stronger and more fulfilling relationship than we could ever have thought possible. It is something we celebrate and revel in every day . . . and it is such a joy to occasionally discover other couples who can share and enjoy such feelings as well.
I wish you both many more years of continuing excitement and bliss . . . AND love!!!
Best wishes - Edith
Jerry,
ReplyDeleteThanks for the very interesting post. Its this sort of post that makes a real blog worth reading.
There's a say which goes something like "If you love someone, set them free. if they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were." - but it takes a LOT of confidence to let you wife go as far as Annabel has- and, I reckon you can be even more confident that she really loves you, as she's very much still there. You guys must be so fulfilled!
Happy Holidays!
Ben,
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutely right in clarifying that this works for the two of you. It makes no difference whatsoever if it could/did/did not work for those of us who read your blog. My wife and I tried, and the comfort was not there for me as it is for you. Please continue to blog about your experiences, and your emotions and their impact on your relationship. It is cathartic for those of us who cannot make such a thing work.
EcoGeekTN